I'm having a hard time finding some cool friends to hang out with & I would love more than anything to find someone who could be a friend as much as help me w/ some 420,.. Recently my good friend passed away & he was my only hookup that I could trust,... so I've been depressed with the loss of him & being without his good will as well,... In my spare time, I enjoy cooking, church activities, dinner out, dancing, eating good food's, long drives, going to the movies, theater, museums, live & recorded music,... or just hanging out with good friends or at my support groups w/ my TG girlfriends, I am down to earth, easy going & very easy to talk too !! I'm not looking to meet any sleazy, quick to the sack type of people. I want & seeking something more!! ;-)
I'm still looking for a reply that is worthy of how a person should be treated !! I have to admit, I have tried to meet guys here before, but haven't had much luck & when I do get replies from my post I usually always get flagged & I am not sure why that happens ?? It's not like I'm a hooker, sleazy or nasty person at all,.. I'm actually pretty decent, cute, polite, sweet, caring & very special person in my own right. I am a good person & I treat others with respect. I honestly think that it's some jealous guy that maybe I didn't go out with or maybe I did not answer him because he was rude to me for some reason, but you would never guess how many guys that are nasty with their X pics, the way they talk to me & treat me like I am some piece of meat or worse a piece of garbage. I get that people don't understand transgender people but is that any reason to be nasty or rude to another human being for no reason at all?? I used to go to therapy for myself & to understand who I was & what being transgendered was all about, but I learned to accept myself for who I am & no longer have those issues with myself,... But now I go to therapy to try & understand why others are so ugly to me, why they treat people like me in this nasty way,.. As I figured it's their hang ups & not mine. I think that people hate what they don't understand & Transgendered people are the most misunderstood people in this world,... Women & Men alike have the wrong idea about us, in fact some think that this is an insane behavior or that we are perverts or deviants which I can tell you that almost every TG person that I have met or know are the most well adjusted, sweet & kindest people that you would ever want to know.
Myself included, along with my girlfriends share the same kind of stories in life, we have known that we were different from a very early age, this is because in pregnancy there were some hormonal & chemical imbalances that caused us to be born different, our minds not matching our bodies, in our spirits & minds we were the opposite,... Some go years without knowing what this is & some are just tormented by society because from the 1st time we expressed ourselves we were made out to be crazy, called names or many other really bad things happen to us, many of us are abused or mis-treated. I can tell you that all we are doing is trying to find ourselves & be who we know we are deep down,... Transition begins & when we do this, it's something that we all know is something that just feels right & it's something that has been holding us back in life. I know when I decided to transition, I was so sure that this is what I wanted & had to do to go on in life, it felt so right to be who I thought I was missing all along, I now know where my life is going & it brings me much happiness these days knowing that I am coming into my own, knowing that my gender role was wrong all along!! Now that I am on hormone replacement therapy I know what I've been missing my whole life & I love all the changes that are happening to me, as many other TG girls wish we had started this a lot sooner & most always regret not following that path much sooner in our lives, but at an earlier age almost impossible to do. Our parents didn't know & when those hormones took over, it ruined our bodies & polluted our minds, this why there is such a high suicide rate in the Transgender communities. I share a common trait with many friends of mine that are going through the same things in life & we all seem to have that same story of regret. We all go through some kind of issues from someone for some reason or another. The way that society is & can be is a cruel way to be treated for being different. Our family & friends reactions to what we decide to do, can be very ugly & most think this is an attack on them because they think we turned on them &/or have lied to them with nasty intent, But if anyone were walk in our shoes they would know right away that it was not easy keeping a secret like this, it's sheer torture to be trapped in someone else's body. Most of us were afraid what someone or many would do to us, because people have been killed or beaten up for expressing themselves, and this still happens, which is just wrong. This has sent the wrong message to many & that is what holds us back from expressing ourselves. I wish I could go back again to do life over proving to myself & others a whole different story.
But I cannot do this, so I struggle just like the next TG person trying explain myself & keep on defending who I am,... It's getting better every day, but life is not perfect & probably never will be. Maybe one day a Transgender person can exist in this world to be able to walk around with our heads held high like I do lately, any man or woman needs to be able to do this without ridicule & being tormented,... In the meantime I will continue to fight for my rights as a person trying to show others that I am a good person & deserve the same respect just as the next person.... Thanks for letting me write this letter & I hope those who read it, think a little bit the next time they try to approach me or anyone else who is different like me.
"God Bless"
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